when wanting too much sex hurts

I love sex so much at times it hurts. They are times I just can't get it, and boy, its hard. But I thank God for the gift of masturbation. The art and beauty of self pleasuring blows me away. I love my body, my legs, my bottom , my clitoris, I love it all. I think the female body is one of God's most beautiful creations. When I look at my nude body in the mirror, I get a hot rushing sensation, and somehow magically my mind takes me to my husband and I miss him so much, I imagine all the beautiful things he does with my body, and I normally end up rubbing myself. I moan quietly and I feel so relieved at times I just smile to myself. I feel so happy inside I wanna do it over and over.

As an African woman who was raised in a culture where female sexuality is taboo and hardly ever spoken about my intense desire for sex meant I often questioned myself if I was normal, at times even feeling some form of shame over my abnormal condition. But sometime in my 20's I was freed from this bondage, if anything I now have a very strong desire to talk about sex, I found a freedom that came from just letting myself go and talking about it. The freedom of enjoying it and the freedom if sharing this erotic pleasure I experience.

Well, as a woman who loves sex, I still have my emotions. I am still from Venus, my husband is from Mars. There are times when my husband just doesn't get me, at times he upsets me, at times we fight and as a woman I just want him to get it in his head that I am not happy. At times I wanna deny him sex. My heart is saying no to sex, but once he starts touching me and kissing me, my knees go weak. I can't resist this man, he put a spell on me. Is the sex always worth it? Yes it is, because it always makes me over look his faults. I believe that's one of the reasons God gave a husband and wife the gift of sex, to help them forgive each other. Most of the times it takes me to another world and wipes my problems away. But there are a few times when sex won't solve my problems and I need more than sex to over look my husband's faults. Oh, at times wanting too much sex hurts, especially when I can hardly ever say no to him!